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| so, how sad is it when a study break involves doing practice questions? is that even a break? at least it's better than reading first aid (a review book), the pathology review book, the pathology book (not a review book), etc... though the pressure is making it more urgent to do those things and is actually overcoming the apathy earlier than expected. i am starting to feel like i have actually learned things in the last two years. coolness =)
i passed my clinical skills exam even though i failed two components of it (i think about 70% of the class failed one of the ones i failed. the other one we were never taught so i am not surprised i didn't do very well)
tomorrow is the last day of tutoring in the north end. we are having a party at the end to say goodbye to the kids and maybe meet their parents/guardians/whoever they live with. i made brownies from a box. those things have gotten way better! and the pillsbury brand does not have nut products in it, nor is it made on machinery that may have processed nuts at some point in the last millenium. kids have so many scary allergies!
this is the week of free food at school. at least i don't have to cook much. though i tried making chicken curry tonight. the sauce came out really good but the chicken is tough. bummer. it's still good, but not GREAT. lol. however... as a MAJOR cooking triumph i actually made rice that was all the way cooked and did not scorch it onto the bottom of the pan OR have to strain the extra water out. YES!!! =-D (it really is the little things)
hmm. i also almost fell asleep facedown on the floor at 7pm today. so i think i'm going to go to bed now. on my last sidenote before i do that... i LOVE pandora! it is SOOOO COOL. www.pandora.com. it lets you pick musicians and then makes a "station" that plays all music that is similar in certain qualities. i have found a bunch of new people i like and been horrified to discover (rather belatedly as usual) that jordan knight is a solo artist?!?! WHAT?!?! i dunno man. that's almost too much. well cheerie! | | |
| well... it was quite a day. church this morning was outstanding. the sermon was completely fantastic. sunday school was good. i just wish praise and worship time lasted longer. pastor jay was talking about greater boldness. i need that. duh. then in sunday school we did the part from matthew 6 about not worrying. i need that too. duh again. and then we had CMDA potluck which was practically all girls (WHERE are the christian guys?!) and one of the christian doctors from hartford came to talk with us. she was talking about how God has a plan for our lives. jeremiah 29:11 is like her favorite verse ever. i have to say it's one of my favorites too.
the potluck reminded me of something that i had thought i sort of understood LAST year... about God's plan. i sometimes/often/whatever feel discouraged/angry/sad that things are not how i want them. and i think, wow it would be so easy to be content if God would just hurry up and get to the part of the plan that i want. which is dumb. i have this notion that my plan for me is like the super ultra delux plan. and God's plan for me is the second hand one he picked up at the goodwill or something. obviously this is totally the reverse of the truth. but it's kind of how i feel right now. the month is not improving. the school apathy continues. i am going to start exercising again this week though. maybe that will help.
it's just so disappointing when someone turns out to be not who you thought they were at all. i can't wait to go home next weekend. i need parental comfort. | | |
| so i vanished for quite a while there. it was a strange month or so. i had my exam last monday, and a clinical skills final last wednesday, and the whole time i just sort of felt like i was drifting along. usually the fear level overcomes the apathy level about three weeks before a test and i buckle down and study and get all ready. not so much this time. the apathy level persisted way longer than usual. but the normal exam went astonishingly well, and hopefully the clinical skills one did too. i hope to keep the apathy at bay for this new section and keep my bible reading and stuff on track as well. and maybe even get back to the gym.
so i promised a while back that i would re-read beyond ourselves (by catherine marshall) and write about it here. i finally got on the stick with that yesterday. chapter one is titled "something more" and it talks about desiring more of God. it's sort of an introduction, like, is this book what you're looking for right now? do you want to know more of God? and it talks about how historically in the twentieth century people (especially Americans) thought that man was inherently good and that the problems of the world could be overcome by education, technology, a clean environment, and good government. then those ideas were shattered by the two world wars, and other wars as well. man is not, in fact, inherently good. and she also talks about the search for meaning and "more". interestingly, this came up in our sermon on sunday as well. our pastor was talking about the interview 60 minutes did with whatsisname brady (the quarterback for the patriots). this guy said that he had 3 superbowl rings but he still feels like there's something missing, there's something more. and he doesn't know what it is. well, i know in my head what it is. but i want more too. so stay tuned for updates.
back on a school note i have a presentation this afternoon about the therapeutic diet for a patient with renal failure and i have to do a HUGE SCARY patient presentation for clinical reasoning on thursday. please pray. also for the apathy thing. | | |
| so i have not updated for a long time. do you ever have one of those days where you wish you could just sleep all day instead of doing what you're supposed to? i am having one of them today. i guess i have just been sort of glum lately and i don't feel like i have much to put on here when i am glum.
i shouldn't be glum either. school is alright. had a fun weekend with good friends and and good church. maybe it's just early spring glumness. or maybe i'm getting sick.
today is hospital visit day. we are talking to patients and doing the thyroid exam. i forgot to cut my nails. oops. but i have my stethoscope and my reflex hammer. so i must be a real medical person...
hope y'all are more cheerie than i am. | | |
| yeah, that is overuse of the exclamation point. but i think spring break deserves it =)
mom and i are going to the dominican republic tomorrow for a week of warm sunniness and beach time. i can't wait. i have to go to the library and get some good books. and of course i have to pack at least one non-fun book so i get something done (a little) in the airport or something.
wooHOO! i'm so excited.
let's see... yeah... there's not a whole lot else going on. i should get ready to face the day since it's after 10. cheerie! | | |
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